Okay, so this rainy day and listening to music go together pretty well. My husband is working in his barn and I am listening to music that ministers to me. I hope some of it will minister to you.
This video is a praise offering I am giving to God – thanking Him for being there for me – for being “my constant” in this life on this earth.
I have had a great deal of changes go on in my life in the past year. I was hospitalized in December 2012 and at home recuperating for basically the entire month of December. My blood pressure was playing tricks on me and I was sleep deprived. God had given me a vision to help someone and they didn’t want my/His help. That was very disappointing. I went back to work in January 2013 and things just weren’t the same. I had been let down because some people placed in my life had really not cared about my concerns. I think I put more hope in people than I should have. I learned to step back and be quiet. During this time I bathed in my sadness and kept to myself quite a bit. My family was worried about my health. I had a job opportunity come my way and I sought after it. I began working from home, but the amount of time needed to spend doing this job became enormous. I was spending between 15-18 hours a day, 7 days a week working and I was having to take a great deal of time away from my family. I was feeling very much alone – being at home all day by myself. I could not do it any longer; it was affecting my sleep again. I was sleep deprived again and very overwhelmed. I gave notice in May and closed out that position on May 29, 2013.
It was the months leading up to December 2012 and the months thereafter that lead to me writing – something I had NEVER enjoyed and NEVER cared to explore. Through my pain and hurt, God touched something deep within me that has stirred up writing. It is like God knew that I was “all about numbers” (because I am a math teacher) and changed my ministerial purpose to being “all about letters, words, phrases, sentences…” I thank God for this outlet. It has helped me in this time of my life to press on…
Since May I have been interviewing quite a bit locally – in surrounding areas. I have been offered positions, but all of them don’t start until mid-August.
I just want to step into the position that God wants me in and I trust Him in knowing which position that is. Resting in Him and knowing that He is in control and He is there for me is such a “sigh of relief” for me.