The following excerpt was when God first started nudging me back journalling. The date this was actually written was November 11, 2012. It was back in a time when I was mentally and physically worn out due to the “to-do” lists from my job teaching 6 classes and prepping for 4 different math subjects in middle school.
“I am physically and mentally struggling with keeping up with EVERYTHING. Guilt for not having my house in tip-top shape and GRACE for each moment that I can stand, sit, or lay down and know that God reigns regardless of my accomplishments or lack of them. I’ve made a wager with today’s technology that when and if I get on the computer that GOD will come first. I quickly check my e-mail to see if I’ve received my online devotional by Holley Gerth and then, if God leads me, I go to Facebook to share what GOD spoke to me. I am THANKFUL that I am not the only woman (wife and mother) who feels this way. I realize that I AM HUMAN (like I didn’t already know that, right?), but that “I CAN do all things through Christ who strengthens me”. Knowing that MY GOD holds every day that I am in gives me peace in knowing that each day whatever gets done gets done and that whatever doesn’t – doesn’t. Life is so much more than a to-do list. Dirty dishes, clothes that need folding…all reminds me of the blessings that I come in contact with everyday within my household. God has blessed me with an awesome family. Papers to grade and lesson plans to do (at that time I was employed) remind me that I have the awesome job of being with young people every day, all day long, AND that I have a job.
Let us be ever, so grateful for the blessings that we take for granted and thank the one who deserves all of the praise. Thank you, Lord!”